stressed

So, I'm sitting here writing this as Callen rolls around on the floor. I watch him do the most amazing things everyday but I can't help but think, would things be different if Eric was with us? I mean I know it's my fault that we're not together as a family but would it reaally have been worth it? I would have been so unhappy living in a place that would have never feel like home. Excuse my rambling thoughts. Here's an update since I can't seem to keep track of this.

Callen is 9 months old, soon be 10 months old. (HOLYCRAP) He is so amazing he learns so many new things everyday. HE can clap, dance, mimic you do EVERYTHING!, army crawl, sit up by himself like if he is laying down he can put himself in the sitting position, he can say: MAMA, DADA, NANA, BABA, HI. He can wave hi and bye-bye, he just learned this weekend how to do the pinser grab and feed himself with his fingers. He was mickey mouse for halloweenbut he didn't go trick OR treating, I just didn't see the point in a 9 month old going out and getting candy.

Oh, I almost forgot. Callen and I are going to visit Eric this month. Yeah, crazy I know. I have a nervous excited feeling going on. I'm not worried about Callen having a weird reaction to Eric because Callen loves everybody but I don't know how Eric is going to react to Callen. It's probably going to have me stressed until we finally get there. Well it's time for a nap for Callen hopefully I'll keep this thing going.

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