Our life so far..

Wow, what to say about my amazing parents. First my mom, you have been there for me whenever I needed you and you still are. Going through a pregnancy and giving birth at seventeen is not an easy thing to do but having you by my side made me feel at ease. I remember when Callen was born I looked over to my left and you were crying. I remember thinking, I could've never done this without you. I love you mama, you are my bestfriend. Daddy, you are always the silent one. I know you love me in your own way I kind of wish you would voice your love toward me.but everyone is different. I remember when I finally told you and mom that I was pregnant you sat on the bed and held me and rubbed my back as i sat in your arms and cried my eyes out. I love you daddy. You both are the most amazing parents anyone could ever ask for. I love you both so much.

I feel bad because I don't really have a crush. I haven't been around enough boys lately to have crushes. So this post is gonna suck.

Callen Phillip, You are my best friend. You are my son. You have only been in my life for 6 months and I can tell you the honest truth that this has been the best 6 months of my life. I couldn't imagine my life now without you. Even though you can't understand a single word I say to you now I know you love me and I hope you know that I love you so much. You are the one boy I know who won't break my heart. I'll be there for you whenever you need me, not only because I am your mom but because whenever you need someone to talk to I want to be one of the people you can trust with your secrets. I love you little boogashrimpers. momma

I've seen this on facebook this past week & i've decided that I am going to do this or atlease try to do it for the next 30 days. A Letter to Day 1 — Your Best Friend Day 2 — Your Crush Day 3 — Your parents Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 — Your dreams Day 6 — A stranger Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from Day 15 — The person you miss the most Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country Day 17 — Someone from your childhood Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest Day 21 — Someone you judged by their fi...

So, I am a HORRIBLE update keeper haha. I'll get you caught up to date on what sbeen going on in my life so far. So, Callen is now four months old. It's so crazy to think of that. He has his 4 month check-up/shots on the 8th of June. He's growing like a weed! I am no longer in contact with Callens father, I really don't know what happened. He hasn't asked about his son on over 2 months so I have stopped any contact with him. Even though that doesn't matter because he doesn't try to reach me any way. I think I have finally found the right guy for me. I have known him for about 2 years he lives in Virgina but is moving to Canada with his family sometime this year. I'm so excited. We have just recently started to reconnect so we want to see where this path will take us. He is compleley cool with me having a son and there is nothing greater that I could ask for. He is completley amazing. So I just though I would make a quick update to get you all caught up. ...

so, i'm sitting here thinking about how could eric possibly think callen isn't his son. i mean come on, he is like a mini you. i hate the fact that he doesn't even care about him anymore, callen deserves so much better than a father who only wants to text "every other day" - his words not mine. i mean seriously? i have started talking to a boy i've know since i was like eight? again mike, he is so sweet. we had talked practactly all day yesterday, he asked about eric and if he was involved and i was honest and said, kind of but not really, which is true. michael was so upset at the fact that eric didn't mind he was being a douche. michael is so inlove with callen, i love it! he wants to come over and meet him and hang out. i know i don't want to start dating or anything but this could be nice for callen to have an actual strong male role in his life while he is so young (2 months). even though he has no ideas what is actually going on. i think this wil...

wow, so alot has changed. lets see, finished junior year at grinnell dated an amazing guy named sam, ended horribly. met some awesome people, fell for the hot football player eric got myself pregnant, yay me! haha Started senior year in grinnell until people started to realized that i was infact pregnant, me being the coward drop out & we (the family) moved back to canada. we planned on moving back anyway but we just moved back alot sooner than planned. we moved back in december and i was due in January, i didn't tell the babys father that i was pregnant i just kinda, uh, left. i know i'm horrible. well, on January 21, 2010. 3 days after my due date i had my beautiful son Callen Phillip. after 2 days in the hospital i came home to find out the people where i used to live had found out i had Callen they were harrasing my calling me a horrible mom for taking Callen away from eric. Eric called me and we talked about everything and how we will get a paterinty test and eric wi...